Getting back out there

Well it didn't go so well today. When I got to my office there were several plants and cards for me. One card & donation from our admin office ~ that one made me cry. I thought I was going to be ok, but when I walked out to the nursing station I burst into tears. I had a patient waiting along with the researcher & lab tech so I had to pull it together to get that done. It went ok and was over fairly fast. Then I basically did nothing except answer email. I cried, I talked, I cried, I laughed, it was exhausting...by noon I had enough and came home. I curled up on the couch with Georgie & slept! The rest of the pack joined us. Poor Tom is on call tonight so there is no telling how late he will be. I picked up some gourmet food to go! So whenever he gets here we can just relax & have some dinner.

The AC motor died over the weekend. Fortunately it's down to the high 80s today so we've been ok. We have 2 AC units, one at each end of the house. At 3am on Saturday night after returning home, the one at our bedroom end of the house started squealing. So it's been off, but the other end of the house has been cool so we had some refuge. But today all is well, it's back in order.

After that was done, someone knocked on the door & the phone rang at the same time. Ronnie was at the door ~ he is childhood friends with Lauren, in fact since they were babies. And on the phone was Cathy, Adam's mother. Adam & Andrew started pre-school together at 3 years old. We've taken both Ronnie & Adam on family vacations with us. They're like our other children. They all got back from MD last night and were checking in with us. I'm glad, we need the support. Apparently, Andrew's childhood friends are having a candlelight vigil at Andrew's grammar school tonight. So hard for them, having not been able to go to Maryland to the funeral/service. So much pain.

Sunday we did see Gary, another childhood friend. He flew out to MD with us but had to come back on Friday. It was good to connect to him again too. He works at the Apple store, he gave us an iHug!

At least I found out Lauren is alright. She's not answering her phone. I texted her last night to ask how she's doing. Her response was "who is this, I lost all the numbers in my phone". At least I know she's there. Ronnie said she was doing alright. That baby & Josh her husband happened at the right time. Did I mention that the baby was born on Andrew's birthday? Everyone says he's a "replacement". Wierd thought. He is his own little self and we'll love him as much as Andrew but he gets to be whoever Robert is going to be!

Last night I went in Andrew's bedroom, the one he uses when he stays here during the summers and holidays. How I wish he had been here instead of planning on coming out in August. Maybe, just maybe... at least we could've given him more hugs. The room felt so cold. It'll be some time before I can go in there again.

Our house is filling up with flowers and plants. People are so kind. Even the smallest gesture is so appreciated. Thank you everyone!